i dont do anything at all but wait for you

when you give it too much, itll go away
and the harder you cling, the farther youll stray
and im so worried but im tryin not to show it in my face
and i wake up every morning hating this place

and when i talk it comes out mean and i guess that thats just me
snowed in tongue and rotting teeth and the anger and the greed
and i just sit in the past, hopin for the future
wanting to break down these walls and kick the shit out of my computer

i am young and i am hateful, i wasted my apology song
when i was a kid i was right handed but now i am just wrong
and i stare down at a grey bubble hopin that you fix it
but its up to me its up to me i am the only miss that

and you dont want me to come back and i am okay with that
and you dont want me to react but when i eat its a heart attack
and i can not stare at myself for too long or it starts to choke me out
and i feel like i am trapped here, i am the walls inside this house

i dont do anything at all but wait for you

and i know that i will calm down and i know this all will pass
and i know itll fly into my hand as soon as it escapes my grasp
but i dont learn from my mistakes and i dont ever chill out
i feel like roots are growing from my throat straight into the ground

and when they tear open my body i hope theres bugs and bees and crickets
because i feel like they're crawling in my skin when at night i start to fidget
i am so scared of everything suddenly falling apart
youre the only thing in the world that eases my heart

and i cant say it well if i dont sing it, so i wont hesitate
like budding grass i am cut down to half myself each day
all i want is a dog, a cute house, and some bills that i can pay
but yeah im doin fine i feel pretty good, i'm okay

i dont do anything at all but wait for you