what if i dont wanna die alone
am i less of an artist if im scared to know
like a jet stream tearin the sky in half
i could be chemical waste or an escape at last

what if im not selfish tonight
and i dont care about the cities or the bright fuckin lights
i was never too good so it's not so bad
gettin so drunk that all i do is stagger

down the hall
never felt this lost before
if you could see how i crawl
would you want to know me at all

no longer wanna fly away, get lost in space
because im lost in the warmth of your smiling face
like the big black hole in my conscience
and how it got everything it never knew it wanted

and i could stay in bed but id rather get up
because the sun doesnt care bout the hurt in your gut
i hope you can move today
i hope it's easier than it was yesterday

because its hard for me
to do simple things
but you dont have to leave
so youre not going to leave

if i could exit with a single thought
like a line in a bible straight from a god
i would be too worried to decide
i wouldnt sleep well any night

i would stare at the ground or look at my feet
like i do whenever im supposed to meet
the opportunities of a new day
never thought i would feel this way

like a puzzle piece, a missing clue
like i was some ancient forgotten part of you
i am excited and nervous and scared and weak
but lately it brings out the best in me

and im glad people know who i am
and i know things i can do and the things i cant
and i always feel like i should put it to rest
i always feel like fukaname x

right?