I Don't Want to Fight Anymore

by Ethan Uhl

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a pop album about an eternal weight

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released January 15, 2016

ethan - famitracker, vocals
morgan - vocals

pop goddess athena - remix of team from hell
soundcloud.com/popgoddessathena

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Track Name: Infinityland
i didnt wanna become this
become anything at all
i wanted to be the color
in the paintings on your wall

i wanted be the flowers
you kept on your windowsill
i wanted to be your song
and now i never will

you'd sing it in in the summer
with your friends out by the fire
i wanted to be that cheer
i wanted to be your desire

i wanted to be you drunk
smiling with big, dark eyes
i feel like a liar
wearing a thin disguise
Track Name: Battle Theme
and now i feel weightless
like god could erase this
and i know it's my purpose
but it grows and it hurts us

like its always been there in you
wouldnt i have run if it was abuse

you said i only wrote about death
and the things i always want but cant have
i thought there was something good inside of my head
but all it is is songs about death

and now i feel hated
and torn from this place that was my home
i am always on my own

luck make me into sweetness
so i can forget this
and lay down
god i wish i could chill out

you said i only wrote about death
and the things i always want but cant have
i thought there was something good inside of my head
but all it is is songs about death
Track Name: Grew is Me
sure i was young then, but i feel much younger now
laying long enough i became your cloud
i felt the rain drop through my fingers,
writing your tears on the page

watchin fievel goes west and falling asleep
fell back into this bad, bad dream
the one where you become an angel
and i just stare and ache

cuz you, you were my home
and i was broken
stomachs lined with heat
til they were golden

all my material things
just end up stolen
and you, you were my home
you were my home x 2
Track Name: Team From Hell
pink rooms in black houses
and little paper bags
visions and reminders
of the life i used to have

when i was finally faithless
when i wanted to believe
that all this love i had was
real love meant for me

i never wanted to live in secret
i never wanted to be forgot
til the day you found me out
and left me in my room to rot

i never thought i would feel so angry
i never thought i would hate this world
never thought i would pin everything
on the shoulders of just one girl

i wanna believe in people
because people believe in me
because most of you are here
not out of spite or jealousy

we could be air we could be ice
the tension thick as steel
i wanted everything for just once
to seem kind of real

i never wanted to live in secret
i never wanted to be forgot
til the day you found me out
and left me in my room to rot

i never thought i would feel so angry
i never thought i would hate this world
never thought i would pin everything
on the shoulders of just one girl
Track Name: Hyperventilation 64
if i could i would kill the sun
watch the snow erase everyone
i feel so guilty all the time
im so happy i never speak my mind

all the hate thats in my head
just builds and rots my teeth instead
i wrote these songs to admit my sins
no redemption in any of it

i haven't got one friend left now
i'm delusional and selfish

and i know i know i know i know
i should be responsible ible ible ible
but there isn't anything that could help this

it's just fire
it's just fire
and i cant breathe

(scream)
if i could just sleep
forget everything
would you come back

if i gave it all away
if i left this place
would you come back

all these things i dreamed o f
when i was a just little kid
became all the things
i regretted i ever did

all these songs just a waste of time
all of my lies, became half of my life
all the waiting for me to thrive
was just little drops of time

if i could i would kill the sun
watch the snow erase everyone
i feel so guilty all the time
im so happy i never speak my mind

all the hate thats in my head
just builds and rots my teeth instead
i wrote these songs to admit my sins
no redemption in any of it

don't worry
you always worry
and call
nothing wrong at all
Track Name: Sleepman
you only liked me when i was drunk
i only liked that you pretended to listen
and once i was all washed up
you realized you'd never miss me

you were the brights i was the radio
i sang you songs while you looked how far you had to go

and all of the curtains and all of the windows
flew open for the world to see
the walls laid empty the house now quiet
it was you there without me

art aint something you buy into
and i guess thats what ive learned
im not an artist for being sad
no one will ever hear the words

the ones i dreamed would land me on stages
would connect me to everyone
they're just text files on my desktop
they're just free downloads on bandcamp
Track Name: Get Mendoza
go write another zine
about how you built this scene
can't wait to see your poems
about how much you hate me

im hypocrite, im a lying dick
im too fucking old to argue this
but when i was diy
at least i did it

at least im here, a world in my head
and you all just want me dead
and most times i do too

im freaking out, im shaking now
im too fucking scared to leave the house
there's nothing to stand up for
i don't wanna fight anymore

i don't want to hate or beg
i wish i could be your friend
i wish i hold your hand
i wish it was that simple

i wish i could see
any kindness in me
i wish i could leave

i wanna fly out of the frame
try and forget about this place
become the time etched in your hate
i looked around and saw nothing

inside of me, there is a dream
there is a hope, there is a plea
that one day we can agree
it was all for nothing

it all comes down to pride
and i'll set that shit aside
if you will look me in the eye
and say what you're sorry for

but instead we hide behind
all the bitterness and lies
i just wanna fucking die
i don't wanna fight anymore
Track Name: Endgame
i could be wasteful
or i could get stronger
i could be the doomguy
walk down empty hallways

hear my own footsteps
echo off the glass
staring at these pictures
of what we had

i could call your name out
til my throat tears up
all of my screams sounds
of building blood

i feel like im turning
into something lighter
the radio static
headlights on the highway

i put my hand up
it melted through the wall
stared into the darkness
like it was my fault

i picked up your body
as my knees start to shake
i became the worlds
final mistake

my stomach lined with gold
oo-oo

how can i feel relief
with guilt surrounding me
i am wraith, i am a haunting thing
i wanna feel your hope but i just sink