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thunderstuck
02:33
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so every last insecurity
comes out in my dreams like bloodstained water
and every time your heart comes around
i only see our sons and daughters
there's no way to say goodbye
so take me back to indiana
or take me back out to the road
escaping every last
anxiety i know
how i want to tell you i love you
i feel her growing inside of me
i feel her growing in spite of me
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and lately, i've been staring at walls
clenching fists, and avoiding selfish sacrifice
and in my bedroom there are our sheets
still spotted lightly from the night
cause i'm sick of fucking caving
and reckless promise breaking
i don't want to be your ghost no more
i don't want to be dead tired no more
but there is a face
staring in at me through my windshield
blinking lights
and forever a chill i can't replace
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big water
02:41
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a slow song won't fix all my fever dreams
where you're fucking away all the shit that i bleed
oh god is this what i've become
a bitter young kid sugar-stuck to his guns
like my sleepy grown eyes and my freezing fast hands
i'm too terrified to even crash land
"i'm not that bad but i'm not that great"
and hiding away all the jewelry i made
if it's affection i crave why do i keep it to myself
if it's adventure i seek why do i stay sober and well
it's 4 am and i'm shaking again
what if this is all there is what if this is all there is
and i wonder
if it was me that was wrong all this time
but once i attached all the stars in search of your name
and all i could see was my own emptiness and malaise
and how i shout at myself like i did when i was young
feeling spacious as the sky between my lungs
and that time that i was drunk and throwing my stomach out
i sat on the curb staring my palms down
but i haven't read in months, and my hands even less
"fuck it" i said "i am the car wreck"
your voice came in my head like the sun did that morning
and maybe yeah, i could also slip around that corner
but i'm trying to be strong i'm trying to chin up
and i'm trying my hardest not to say the word "love"
and all i really want is to just walk away
and finally escape all my fucking mistakes
because i find myself crying every time i lay down
and thinking of the easy ways i could get out
you were no notes that i could sing or scream out
and my head felt heavy like a puppet laid down
i felt small and trapped and the weakest of the pack
just waiting for your memory to fucking attack
and i'm shaking and scared and alone and i just want to wake up i just want to wake up i just want to wake up
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girl quest 2007
03:54
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i am malignant and i am constant
and i am a mirror looking into the next
and i can only see what is in front of me
and in remembering, i have found
that every last word will make a harsh sound
by the time it reaches your ears
from atop a mountain, i have claimed
the answers to questions too scared or ashamed
to even whisper out
but i shouted loud at your tombstone
and asked your ghost to show
so i could make out your silhouette against the sunset
one last time
but maybe this time i will follow,
i will venture and i will never let your heart win
(do you hear it?)
my chest feels like an empty room of an open wound
oh, and my frozen hands keep dragging at the past
and i'd like you to settle up and move
like everyone else who stood down
and laid before me like a sacrifice
see you tomorrow
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beauty and king dork
02:50
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now i guess i'm always asleep
drawing dreams around my eyes
and in the middle of sentences
i keep searching for surprise
there's a lot of me in you
treading outwards on the pavement
thinking blood out of your forehead
there's a lot of me in you
peeking out your insides
fighting so hard just to be right
just for once
but you live so far away
and you don't even know my name
it makes me sad when you are sad
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infinity card
02:56
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it always feels like your house
has everything worn out
and everything you touch
will turn to dust
if our hearts keep beating
i'll fly up through the ceiling
and even sin can't touch us now
that your light will fade too
but i won't go away just yet
i'm trying to remember
what it was i came in here to forget
i keep staring at reflections
on broken shards of glass
left buried on the bathroom floor
just waiting
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trugst me
03:09
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your spine and me
could find the space beneath
your smile
where you're collapsing into yourself
some broken glass
could act as
a priest to marry us
before another bell has rung
and is ringing in my ears
oh your hips are swinging
in the winter rain
freezing the streets
and your heart beats louder than my scream
because i know that you believe
i know that you believe in love
all these books i read,
these lives i lead
well there is a ghost that follows them
whispering and underneath
my fingernails and skin
i've heard the cries from its former life
where jesus calls his name
and i can see the future of its past
and presence of the man i'll grow to hate
oh your eyes are reading
right into my breathing
and i guess this is how i will feel
and i hope when i'm dying
you'll look down hiding
and maybe then
there will be trust
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shit hey we're fucked
03:33
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hey what's the difference
between my life and your disinterest
cause i'd say these headaches will last
and a sattellite has beamed me
into your head, invading your dreams
like the sandman that i am
because i blow away with the wind
escaping in groups from the people i've been
a broken tooth stabbed like sobriety
or the aching land that fills the space from you to me
dancing in the wind
with me again
well i don't mean to disappoint you
but my god, i just feel scared
that you will see the thing i see
when i look into my reflection
well i have seen the bravery
between the absolute and the incomplete
i have seen the sun marching slowly west
and like a damn machine
you too will bury me
in a coffin where they'll claim i was blessed
just like the dog i saw
on my birthday when i escaped the fall
well you made me feel alright
and i'll miss that night, i'll miss that night
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